Clown shoes Paint Brushes Time and Creativity with great toast

I have painted at one time or another for most of my adult and adolecent life. At times I have stoped for long periods at a time not holding a brush for months or years at a time. As the regularity of day to day life seemed to draw out all the positive and negative energy which an artist needs to have feeling in their work like anything in the world without heart it falls short.

Over the last week i have completed several paintings and have restarted a number more. Art supplies are strewn around the house already as I struggle to bring them together mixing mediums and methods all working at the same time to try to draw somthing out of myself that used to be so ingrained I thought it would never leave me.

I have one that I have been continualy repainting over and over and again I definitly understand why an artist would burn canvas but what if its the one with the hiden masterpiece burred below a quarter inch of layers painted and repainted. You can know if you dont give up trying maybee...

The most simple of meals can always make an impact deep within the soul the body or the mind the senses and sensations of a simple food like toast with a specific jam or jelly with a clasic coat of butter and honey. Why can a piece of toast wake somthing because it brings back the sensations and wake a part of a person reminding them perhaps not directly but indirectly of a passion or a thought or somthing deep and burried ideas and knowlege are awoken even if just on a sub level. Good toast has always seemed better with a paint brush. Just like a song can make you sing or dance or even just wiggle especialy if you are rythm challenged. Not that I am the proverbial man dancing on everyones feet in giant clown shoes...

When I think of all the time I have not spent working but have twiddled away doing this or that it makes me a bit angry with myself. Be that as it may it occured to me how many people there are out there playing farmivlille or some similar game on a webpage investing hours and hours of time in fictional characters all the while missing out on their own creativity and inspirations. I have not been inspired in any way by these games but have seen many myself included waist hours and hours of time in mindless abandon. ohh im ranting again... Any way the conclusion I draw from all of this is that these are often one of very few choices the working class get to make on a very real level where they can succede or feel that they acomplish somthing which they can value and win no maybee achieve somthing. My feeling is that so many of us connect to these types of things on a sub level giving our over cooked brains the feeling if only for a few hours of control and freedom from outside control.

I think that is why many react very badly when a bad thing hapens in a game or the service changes or ends. War of Warcraft alone has  a 2.2 billion dollar market share in selling an alternate reality. Second life offers a similar world where you can build and sell anything you can think up create and or add animations to. Like when aol was young and offered the opportunity to reinvent yourself on the internet. Lying was and probably still is widespread throughout the internet.

I dont know what do you think?

The world is a pickle and my University is full of dips

Sometimes I wish the world was a giant pickle so I could eat it and fill up on dilly goodness. On the other hand I do enjoy a dill pickled green bean much better and they are much more crunchy after they are canned a while.

I have not acomplished much today just payed for Global economy at University. I was not pleased with them much as I recieved an email late sunday nite notifying me that I couldnt enroll in a class because I did not meet the prerequisits. Heres the interesting part they did not tell me what class or what prerequisit i hadnt met . That seems a bit lazy to me. how hard is it to add a course and name to a notification. So I responded in kind with a response email that was heated at best. So what do they do but call me on my cell phone while of course Im on the toilet. for what else but a comfy little confrence call with both schedulers at the university. Too chicken to just call me and tell me to deal with the problem.

Mind you I have three classes left to grandify my exit with a third economics class a single elective which I NEED to be in accounting to sit for the CPA. and finaly a nice introduction to college class to finish my degree 103 YAY what a waste of opportunity it makes me cringe I always want to say fringe that I could be learning somthing I can use and actualy benefit from .....

Well so what do they tell me but that Its not Global economy but a class I was recomended to take by one of them. When you look under the surface it seems ubsurd to me that they cant even comunicate in course names but in IB232 language. Tell me the stinken class. Neither one of them bothered to read the file or farmilurize themselves with it. no instead lets just wing it. Great teaching method hmmmm grumbling

Anyway after all that I do what I always do research so I open up the worst college Catalague I have ever seen i mean this thing is infuriating .... I have seen a number of well done ones this one is the absolute worst the class descriptions are spread throught the book and not in alphabetical order I might add. I find the class which states prereq ec214 or teacher aproval....... Why couldnt they just ask her if i could take the class or sugest it even. then they tell me it will need the deans aproval. If the teacher aproves it whats the problem? why say with a teachers aproval and not the dean..... Grrr i just dont get it who exactly works for who Im a student not a puching bag and I pay them allot of money to do very little in return.

It frustrates me that they are supposed to be there to help you.... thats their job not to make money for the college although they can do that by simply helping the student who will in turn be more likely to stay and take more classes with them... Its just sad it makes me feel realy not great about it.....

So next week I will have to fix the nuty little problem by simply visiting a teacher with a form letter requesting to take the class and draft another letter to the dean which states all the wonderful changes I am looking to make in my fabulous final adventures/////